Something feels...off...
As you’ll gather from the verses below, I need to take my foot off the gas for a bit to look after myself and prepare for what I feel is going to be one heck of a troubled summer. There’s going to be a shift in emphasis towards the more practical side of our activism where it feels like we can make some impact. That ranges from the community gardening and litter picking through to the stickering and handing out copies of printed papers. There’s going to be a lot less doom scrolling, that’s for sure. There will still be a blogging service but, not quite so frequent as it has been…
Feeling anxious, feeling stressed, feeling pressure Too much is happening...it’s hard to keep up Feeling I need to get away from it, but... Also knowing I have to confront and deal with it In all my decades, I've never felt like this The pressure build up is relentless, frightening Last summer's turmoil bubbles under... Threatening to rear its head again on the streets The drumbeats of war get louder by the day As those who presume to rule over us, strut and pose Knowing nothing of the peril they’re leading us into Fools and charlatans driving us to oblivion What was once sound has turned to sand Who we thought we could trust, we no longer can Division, suspicion and hate are rife Certainty is nothing but a distant memory It feels that everything is up in the air... Where and how it will land...who knows? All we can do is work to find our own truth All the while, seeking new, trustworthy connections All I know is that I need to step back and rest... I need the space to find my inner peace I need the wisdom to find my inner strength Then when I’m ready, I'll return for the final fight...
Again, beautiful words and I totally get it. I get overwhelmed by all that is unfolding, so much is happening now, so fast, deliberately of course, to keep us bombarded, distracted, as they rush their agenda up, there has to be balance, time to be with ourselves and retreat or this world will destroy us. We can only do what we can do and have to keep tuning in, going within, to cope with everything outside.
I totally understand! Once the self is taken care of, the self can care for others. I'm sending you healing vibes!